Tulips Bloom When They Want

There are moments in life when you have to make a decision that hurts you in places that you can’t seem to articulate. When you reach for the words, you can’t even begin to complete the sentences for fear of running into your own feelings. I understand the amount of work it takes to stay sane. It is dangerous when you leave doors + windows unlocked to a house you never owned keys to. It will leave you vacant in ways that you often wonder who ever granted permission to so many unworthy people.

This is the space I have been visiting + unpacking my work around lately. People can be so careless + often times you are the one observing them set your life on fire because they are accustomed to burning bridges. They often wonder why you keep such tight boundaries, why you are so protective of your peace + often are consumed with your “work”. It is a slippery slope when you give people access to parts of your life that they haven’t earned.

In this season, I am being more diligent about my boundaries+ not because I lack them. When you are tasked to heal the various versions of you that life tried to discard, you make damn sure that you make it harder for anyone to violate you again.