Meditate

My mind is often consumed with petitions graciously offered up to the Creator. It is important to remain in my lane with the awareness that I am constantly becoming. I have tried to simplify my mission, clarify my space + the individuals in it. I’m speaking of modifying my distractions + the amount of times I have to re-learn the same lesson. I am conveying the only thing that matters to me is showing up for me. If it seems selfish then clearly you lack boundaries, your filter is low + you are dolling out obligations to people that are getting you further away from your goals. I suggest that all people choose themselves.. First! Healing is imminent whether you accept it or not.

These days I insist on clarifying everything just to ensure that my happiness is secured everyday. My trauma has been recycled for my good + I present others with the same solution. Unfortunately, its harder to apprehend when you are clothed in anguish, but it feels like pleasure. Its difficult to remove interruptions when you are fascinated with pain due to delirium. Its complicated. I have witnessed people barter their self-worth for people they can’t stand, things they can’t afford + lies that keep them in the same debris expecting love. We make things difficult because we refuse to see that what we desire, we already have.

This moment in my life will only be defined by my prayers. I am sure of it. This period in my life will only be defined by my willingness to be honest at every moment. I refuse to nurse old wounds, while living in a country that is still unpacking what it means to evenly distribute resources. This very brief period in time will be defined by every moment that I stop to give thanks, acknowledge that grace has already been given + gratitude is constantly in rotation. At this juncture, I am convinced that being normal is still over-rated.